What is there left to do really?
How much can I turn up my dial? I have to know. I must do it. There is no more time for moderation. To leave something left in the tank is to live an unfulfilled life and I’m not here for it.
I’ve already known the lowest of lows and that is in large part because I let fear keep me from ‘being crazy.’ Actually it’s insane to not feel everything 100%.
Of course there are limits as far as potentially harming anyone else. What I’m talking about is playing small and expecting success to come to me. Expecting that if I’m just polite, shy little Matthew, all the ducks will line up in a row.
No. Absolutely not.
Listen I’m a practicing churchgoer and what I’m talking about here is seizing on the opportunity God gave me to be REAL. Not another suburbanite statistic no-name who tampers down all his ambitions, holds in his belly laughs, and always stays away from taboo topics. Thinking my dreams are too far off to achieve.
I HAVE to realize my full potential in Love, Friendships, Career, Financial Success, Connection with God and with Self.
Moment-to-moment can be difficult to discern what is the right action. Should I take this time to meditate in silence to deepen my soul? Does my soul need a funny podcast right now? It’s almost always hard to know exactly what is the perfect choice.
But God, I’m trying. I dare say I’m trying my best. I feel extremely far off from where I want to be but I’m sincerely asking for your help.
I’m being good. I’m doing what I can with what I’ve got. Now I need you to enter the picture and connect some parts that I can’t put together myself.
Please. Please help.
Here. I’m giving up the belief in lack. Here you go! Take it! I never wanted it but I was taught by everyone around me that that’s the way to succeed. Makes absolutely zero sense but that seems to be what everybody thinks.
I give up. I give up being small.
I’m ready. Show me what to do next and I’m all over it.
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